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Mixed Feelings..

Mon, 05 Sep 2011 17:01:15 +0100

Yesterday, 4 September 2011... went to lunch with intern friends, and then go Book fair, then have dinner together, bla bla bla~ it was supposed to be a fun day... but something happened.. made me abit 'down'.. well, but i told myself i must be a cheerful guy or else i will bring the atmosphere down.. so, i continued smiling.. :)

Yesterday was also my another time experience kena stung by bee... kanasai bee go stop at my hand.. =.= then my hand feel itchy, go scratch it (normal reflexes) ... then suddenly feel "eh how come so hot and pain?" gg... saw one bee died on my hand.... and kena sting liao... wtf.. think of it also geli.. the isi also terkeluar d.. zzz..... then hand damn pain the whole time i was in book fair... aih.. then whole person feel abit kind of "wanna vomit" punya feeling... dunno it's coz of the poison , (coz last time when i kena stung also vomited twice), or is it i ate too much.. LoL..

after book fair, then went to some stall eat western foods........here eat alot somemore... whole body really feel like throwing up liao that time.. luckily still can tahan.. @_@ die la, fat already....................... DIET PLAN INITIALIZED.. dun care d.. nabe....

ok..nothing much happened...really.. just some small things which made me down / emo for a few..minutes? or maybe hours...

then today 5th september 2011...went to work as usual ~ but my hand...feel damn itchy all the time.. wan scratch , scare will hurt the injured part pulak.. no scratch.. damn suffering =.= ARGH, i seriously hate insects now !!!! Dun let me see any bugs / insects liao... i see 1 kill 1 !!!!! =.= And....wanna do my work.. cannot concentrate pulak..maybe coz not enough sleep gua.. or maybe.....nvm.. i'll skip that.... and i just noticed my IEEE Conference paper.. alot works need to do but i haven't started yet... 30th september DEADLINE...wth.. my work pulak alot jobs.. die lar, too many works suddenly.... guess it's time to be serious and focus on my works already....

Went to queensbay at night just now...saw few pretty girls.. very pretty and elegant, sexy. really like models.. long legs, pretty face. Wow, never thought there are penang girls whom are that tall ! Cool~but suddenly i feel down coz they're even taller than me >.<"" Sigh ~ this is life...

Anyway, enough with my daily routine.. LoL, just wanna say.....life is really difficult. You be good, people will try to take advantage on you and step on you. You be bad, people don't like... but when i wanna be bad, i can't coz i just tak sampai hati and my face doesn't allow me to be bad.. lol~ but how come ah ? Good people always nobody like? Or i just haven't met someone who likes good people yet ? lol..

honestly, my wish is for everyone around me to be happy, that's why i am always flexible when doing anything, i follow their needs, then they happy, i also happy. they use me, they happy, i also happy, coz i tell myself i can learn new things when i help them to do something. so i don't really mind...really. But then, can't there be any moment where someone actually, try to make me happy ? I was always trying my best not to upset anyone, but when the times come, people just... upset me, ignoring me, dumping me, making me sad, doesn't even think about me, leaving me alone.. Can't i have a moment where someone actually..cares about me, or understand what i feel ? No.. so far there was none...wait.. i think there's 1...but it's been years since the "1"..and i've lost contact with her long ago.........dunno which b**** steal my hp last time making me lost contact with her !!

I don't know la, maybe due to my "flexible" attitude, it's hard for other people to understand me? or they just don't care? lol. anyway~ enough with the emo stuffs also.. @_@ where was i? oh ya.. lol

just wanna tell everyone who's reading my blog... "Big social network" doesn't mean good if you don't know how to handle it well... Don't be like me, amateur trying to broaden my network. Being equally good with everyone makes yourself not having any "best" or "good" groups where u can mix in. When they hang out, you won't be included because you're just "normal" to them, not "good" or "best" friend. unless you are the type that can be good friends with everyone in a big network.. that's different case.. for my case, this is what happened to me.. some even say i keep changing my group, not loyal to 1 group. see which group beneficial then i go which group. NO, they are wrong. I went to other groups because the old group dumped me.. sad huh? But too bad nobody understand me and my feelings..... No.. they're just too lazy to think. Most people likes to see stuff with their eyes, not brains. Guess ppl with brains are really less nowadays... Or maybe my brain just thinks too much.. lol. sorry ya, one of my favorites are detectives and mysteries. =p

And, when you're in a group...i guess it's best to remain 'hidden' or 'silent'.. my advise.. Previously i was a very quiet guy. Remain hidden, unnoticed. nobody notice me, hence nobody hates me or likes me, and nobody wanna mix with me coz i'm just too quiet ~ lolx. The old me thought this was..sad, coz don't have much friends.. so the new me came up, trying to be "active" with everyone.. making as many friends as i can !! but it seems like being noisy / active just makes people hate you coz you talk alot..i think? don't know la, maybe i was just too...noisy... hahahar ~~ why is the life so hard hor? Be good cannot, be bad cannot, do this cannot, do that also cannot. guess the world is really set up in a very balanced manner...

Then some people.. i just don't know why....seems don't like me or hate me? i don't know, but seems like the way of talking with me and other ppl is very much difference.. with me it's much colder.. i wonder why.. too noisy? too sohai? Or... i'm just not as good in a relationship with him/her, as other ppl is? i know him/her earlier..but why?? Face problem? Or what.. i really can't understand this sometimes.. It saddens me sometimes when everyone was mixing together so well, and i'm the only one not so well. Or is it i'm thinking too much? No... my sixth sense has always been quite accurate... so why? Sigh.. really sad.. but nvm.. i'm used to being alone..so i can pretty much handle this kind of loneliness.. just hope that someday will come where someone can actually fill my loneliness and emptiness in my heart... :) will be waiting for that miraculous moment.. :)

Oppsie~ sorry for the long essay~ just feel like expressing all at a time.. coz just too many things happened in these few days / weeks. I've really seen and understand many things through this internship.. sad, happy, angry, down, etc etc... So.. i'm abit glad actually. It really makes me matured alot.. but too bad, i think i'll still be the same old being-dumped-ones for another few months / years...though i know "emo" is not good and people don't like it..... but everyone just loves making me emo, don't they ? =(

Outings non-stop in these few days = DIE

Thu, 01 Sep 2011 15:46:28 +0100

These few days keep going out... all interns are finishing their intern soon, then everyone say there will be no next time.. so, go lo ~ but then mostly also go eat de place.... why die? coz i'm getting fat...!! and waste alot money.. petrol money... food money... sing k money... @_@" this month's budget over again liao... i think next month money also almost kering liao.. jia lat.. must control leh...

Somemore...play play play until forgot my bro.. >< today suddenly thought of my bro at home dunno got anything to eat or not..got ppl teman him eat or not.... suddenly feel very down thinking of this.... i eat with friends outside so happy, and he alone at home...eat dunno what... today back from home saw tong sampah inside got mcD..seems like he's having mcD at home..alone..... haih, thinking of this, my heart aches again. Really feel sorry for him... (sorry coz didn't teman him...and sorry coz forgot to inform him i'm going out with friends.... if i informed him earlier, maybe he can plan ahead and go to his wife there eat.. no need eat alone liao...) .. haiz... really go play till forget liao~ feel soo.....bad... ><

Tomorrow going steamboat with interns again.... dunno if my bro got ppl accompany eat or not..hopefully he go his wife there eat..haha.. then i at least "fang xin" abit... =)

random feelings...

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 07:23:36 +0100

finally updated my blogs after so long huh.... but my blog is full of bugs so yeah.. lazy to fix it...

today follow chin loong they all (interns in Altera) go eat till damn full... say wan diet but stilll......die liao lar...then before watching movie, go eat Sakae Sushi somemore... lagi full.. jia lat lor~ wasted around RM100 in 2 days.... i must really control my expenses liao.... dun ajak me out to eat somemore pls....then my bro called 1 time around 6pm, when i was driving to queensbay.. didn't get his call, so didn't respond to it... then eat sakae sushi, after finished eating.. go watch movie..until 9:50 something.. then fetch my friend back home, and wan sin tak ingat jalan...make us sesat turn around few times..haha..

then she macam accidentally called my brother, so then my bro called back, i thought he just wanna ask why i called him just now, and plus i was driving, so i choose not to answer the call first... mana tau rupanya he got send a message to my other handphone (which i rarely check), telling me that he will wait for me to come back to change car... didn't notice the message, so when he called, somehow i feel his voice abit sad, disappointed....troubled by it, i messaged him again "u waiting for me ?" (that time was still fetching last 1 friend back home... and i didn't see his message on my other handphone...)...then fetch my friend back home lor, then when reach home, i got a feeling my bro just left not long ago... (my sixth sense ba..), that was when i received a message from my bro, saying he called alot times etc etc, and i didn't response.. then only i checked my other handphone and found the message he sent me, telling me that he will wait for me... then only i know what i've felt are all really happening...

haih, then suddenly i feel so bad for him... purposely waiting for me till so late, but i did not back home, and didn't inform him....making him leaving the house to my sister-in-law house so late, after waiting for me so long, without being able to see me... and wasn't able to do what he wanted to do -> change and check his car...

really feel very sorry.. but i really don't know how to make up for it with him... he's such a nice brother, but yet what i did was just hurting him... =( i'll try my best not to repeat the mistake next time ba ~ >.<

was still thinking about it when writing this post..haha...then i suddenly felt, was there someone i can lean on, or someone i can go to and express my feelings when i wanna cry, or when i feel sad? haha~ just a sudden thought... haih ~

why la usually when i talk to ppl, i always try to control my words not to make them sad, taking care of their feelings, but when people talk to me, nobody seems to care what i feel? they just say what they want and continuously hurting me, really sad when thought about it......................................

The Returns~

Sat, 02 Oct 2010 11:05:14 +0100

Alright ~ After so long... finally i get to update my blog.. ^.^

So~ First of all... Thanks for still keeping up with my blog... and... HAPPY HOLIDAY ! to all my MMU friends who had just finished all their exams ~ ^^ Wish u all enjoy all ur holidays ya ~

So~ nothing much to update.. >.< coz i'm not really that kind of ppl who likes to take picture... so i rarely take picture to show you all even when some "rare" cases happen..haha.. So~ hope u won't get bored reading these long words from me ^^ But i will try make my words as fun as possible la~~~ Any suggestion u can post in the Chat Box ^^ Thankiew !!~ *meow~*

(i wonder why fish keluar bunyi meow now....LoL!~)

So ~

By the way... just wanna post something here ... to ... remind myself of the embarrassing day that day.... 1 day before my Random Processes and Queueing Theory Exam, (29th September 2010 around 8~9pm...or was it 5~6pm? can't really remember.. that day was quite cloudy though~~).... I was reading random in library top floor....near the end there near the toilet... being sooooooo stressed... when suddenly i noticed some girls like looking at me like that.... so i look at them... "huh..? @@"

know what they asked? -.- They asked me whether i'm studying engineering or what... then i replied "yea ar...? @@"... then they asked me to check the lamp on the individual seats in library there !!! -.- say it suddenly not working... asked me whether i can help fix it or not ~ u know la.. i no experience in such things ler...~!! >_<""

So i go there... try to adjust adjust the lamp abit.... (as what i usually see my father do when my house lamp spoilt... >.<).. then adjust adjust dy ~ still no lamp... so i thought wan check the "switch" ... nothing wrong also ~ then i try wan check the ...dunno what it's called.. The small small cylinder thing on the lamp there de... most of the lamps have it de...

But that thing was pushed inside of the hole !!! >.< i cannot see whether it's disconnect liao or not ~ trying a futile attempt... keep trying to whether can take it out from the hole or not.. x_X but no use.... so i thought maybe wan try change the lamp from other individual seats .. if it's lamp problem then it will be solved dy lor~~ Right ??? XD

So i go to other empty individual seats....plug out the lamp~ (ok~ i'm done with this thing !~ ^^) but..... when i reached her seats there.... the lamp was stuck there !!!! >"<""" i cannot take the lamp out... ARGH !!! Sudahlah so stress ~ this lamp masih wan give me more trouble ~!! So no choice lor.. then i put back the lamp.....

(and i noticed everyone in the library was like..... looking at me... =.=" walao wei~ sibeh xia suei sial.... >.<).. Too bad couldn't help that group of girls....

Then my friend keep bising bising beside me "Wooo Woo~ Future engineer ! ", "Hp number please !!~ " when i tengah try to fix it.. =.=" kanasai ~ they attract all the attentions.. >.<

One more.....funny thing ~ I so blur that time... then when i asked her "why don't u change seats to the one with the working lamp?" then she said she wanna sit there.........and guess what i said?

"or you change with her la?" .. pointing at her and one of her friends there.... i also dunno what am i saying~ dah lah she said wan sit there.. i asked her change with her friend somemore~ >.<

What's even worse........ her friend asked me... "Then how am i supposed to study??"... LOL !! That time damn pai seh !!! Asking her friend to sacrifice for her pulak... HAHAHA... Sial.. i am too blur dy that time due to the stupid random... (and stress from C++ which i haven't started at all... >.< next day exam but all 20 chapters haven't read yet....).. then i was laughing there "eh sorry sorry...!! HAHAHA >.<"" " nasib my friend help me abit telling them "sorry ar my friend study too much already, blur already".. =.= sia suei betul ......

Hopefully i won't meet such situation somemore !!~ Different story lar if i managed to help ~ But... i'm not even a qualified engineer ler ~ >.< plus i'm more towards software based... not hardware... >.< So....sorry la ya girls ~ >.<"

Trip to Bon Odori on 17th July 2010~

Sun, 25 Jul 2010 08:40:40 +0100

As the name stated ~ i went to bon odori in shah alam on 17th july 2010~ haha.. nothing much i can say ba, just.. it's fun ~ and this year got alot more leng lui !~ XD Hahaha ~ And the sad thing is my leg very pain that time... cannot really enjoy the trip.. >"<

And...it's too many pictures to be uploaded~ So.. visit my facebook profile from "About me" section and check for my album named "Bon odori Trip 17th July 2010" something like that for more pictures ^^ haha ~

But i can upload something here~

Check this out XD

Full of pancakes and ice creams ~ (got banana also !~).. the cup beside is honey~

Dunno what volcanic something~ the name~ forgot dy... but it's worth RM65++.. and it's mentioned in the menu that it can fill up to 10 people ~ Haha ~ That time me and my friends just got 5 people... So.... u imagine la hor~? ^^"

3 guys and 2 girls ~ What that's mean? Hahaha~ XD

Couldn't finish it in the end.. left like 1/4 somemore.. @_@

that's one of the few interesting / rare things to be shared ba ~ (in my opinion) ~ Anything else (pictures etc~) can visit my facebook profile ~ hahax ^^

~Selling Kaya~

Sun, 25 Jul 2010 08:31:33 +0100

Selling handmade kaya~ made by my mom~ whoever wanna buy can contact me via email at wspua90@hotmail.com or facebook at wspua90@hotmail.com ok~ preferrably Malaccan people only~ Coz lazy do delivery service~ and hard to do~ xD unless u wan order alot~ haha ~ (Coz delivery service need $$ also >.< unless u willing to pay for it~ hahaha XD)

This kaya is 100% organic, no bahan pewarna, or bahan pengawet, or any other side-bahan that will help in making the kaya more delicious, it is totally natural and ~ yea, very fresh also ^^

Who wanna buy can contact me ya~ Thanks ^^

here are some pictures of the kaya taken ~

Trip to KL with friends~

Sun, 25 Jul 2010 07:53:45 +0100

ok... after 1 whole month ~ Finally i got time to update my blog !~ XD hahaha ~ Sorry for the late update yaa ~ ^^" Somemore i don't have much pictures to upload to share ~ And my phone got problem connect to my pc for me to copy the pictures down.. So.........normally i malas wan update dy coz picture cannot be retrieved from phone ><"

Anyway ~ hehe.. here comes ~ My...

Trip to KL with friends~

We start bertolak around.... 10:30am or 11am from my house and my friend hoe nian be the driver~ XD on... xxth July 2010 ~ (shit.. i forgot which day dy... i think is 3rd July ~ ^^" ).

On our way ~

The weather that day damn~~~ nice.. wanna rain like that but not raining... sibeh windy and syok ~

Once we arrived there~ The first place we went is to eat some....what adi ar? I forgot what it's called ~ hoe nian pls help me !! x_X

Quite delicious ba.. not bad ;p

sambil makan nasi ~ sambil minum air ~ the chilli also not bad~ xD

After this then we went to planet science ~ there macam cannot take picture or what? I forgot~ but i didn't take any.. >.< so.....nothing much lo~ inside just introduce alot of technologies ~ and some other science-related things gua ~ haha...
The only thing i wanna state here is..

ng kian giap ar ~ kesian all the small kids kena u halau ~ hahahahahaha !! Kesian oo i see the small kids there trying on the mini games available there.. Coz there got these kind of games for u to play, for u to try out the games created by their science technology etc, then this cat dog... hahaha.. i dunno how to say la ~ somehow he managed to make the small kid scare and run away.. then he rampas the game and play... hahahahahaha ~

After that~ we just went to sungai wang, times square and lowyat shop shop abit lo~~ these places are like shopping centre so i didn't really think of taking any picture gua ~ ^^" so.. no pictures xD

Then we went to eat~ and then go back to our so-called "Hotel" ~ (sial u kian giap.... u pictured it like damnn luxurious... but.... Arghhhhh give me back my money !!! >.<)

Then at night teman ah ye watch world cup abit~ haha.. then go to sleep liao~

Then the next day~
Actually plan to wake up around 8am go eat de~ so we have more time to jalan jalan~ mana tau that ah ye and nicholas sleep sleep like a pig until 10 or 11am~ then we go walk walk sungai wang abit again~ until around 12:30pm~ then go meet up with hoe nian to eat yong tau fu~ XD

we eat until around 2 or 3pm ba~ then drive to sungai wang jalan jalan there~by the time we reached there is like 3:30 or 4pm something liao~ can walk walk awhile only ~ >< then i force all of them go ice skating !! >3

Behind is the ice-skating place ~ cannot see clearly hor? go and see urself baru syok ^^

Then after that we went home around 6:30 or 7pm~ reach home around... 10pm ba~ ^^ then we go satay celup abit nearby my house ~
haha ~

The end ~

First time Futsal!

Wed, 30 Jun 2010 09:51:08 +0100

Today is my first time playing futsal...!!
今天是我第一次玩 futsal...!!

Went there on request by hoe nian and ng kian giap... (or maybe i should use the word "being forced"... -.-")..
Hoe nian 和 ng kian giap 叫我去的。。。（还是我应该用 “逼“ 这个字。。。？ -.-")..

and that nicholas... said wanna go, then only i agree to go mia... see see he last minute ffk...
还有那 nicholas... 说要去，我才答应要去的。。没想到他最后一分钟放飞机...

kanasai him.. jaga u later sure kena us 3 rojak >.<
kanasai 他。。小心你等下给我们三个 rojak >.<

Nvm~ i have a fun time there though... my leg all damn sakit after that match... all bengkak.. T_T
没关系~ 我还玩到了蛮好玩一下... 我玩完那一场过后脚很痛。。。全部肿起来。。 T_T

see how's my toe colour now~ lolx ::(
看我现在的脚趾的颜色~ 哈哈哈。。 ::(

That time back reach home around 1:30~ Then quickly bathe and go to campus liao for my 2pm class.. XD
那时回到家差不多　１：３０～　then 马上冲凉去学校上两点的课了。。　ＸＤ

then i have to drive car somemore.... Leg damn pain already.. but nvm lo~ sendiri cari punya~ T.T
那时还要驾车。。脚很痛了。。。没关系咯～　自己拿来的～　Ｔ。Ｔ

Then i go attend my 2pm class ~ (but i fall asleep again... XD)
过后我就去上我两点的课～　（可是又睡着了。。。　ＸＤ）

Then after class, i have free time until 6pm~ So i go CITS on9 on9 abit play facebook abit ~ XD
课完过后，我就得空到 6pm~ 所以我就去　CITS on9 on9 一点玩 facebook 一点～　ＸＤ

Guess who i see?
猜我看见谁？

Ta dang~~~~

My friend name Samuel is reading notes to do his assignment !!! XD
我朋友名叫　Samuel 真在读 notes 要做他的 assignment !!! XD

But why his pc infront looks like facebook interface for me...? LOL!
可是为什么我觉得他的电脑前面很像　facebook 的 interface...? 哈哈哈！

Then i go to my class from 6~7 lo~ then got meeting at 8~10~ then i balik rumah already lo~ End~ XD
过后我就上课从　6~7　咯～　then 有开会在 8~10~ then 我就回家了咯～　结束～ XD

15th June 2010 Updates!

Wed, 16 Jun 2010 21:48:50 +0100

Today went to school as usual~ and on my way... i saw got 1 car~ sibeh want fast and duwan queue up behind of the long car queue... and intended to "potong" from the side... but then that time traffic lights red dy~ so 'SHE' stopped her car beside of the road lane that is turning to the right, (apparently the driver is a 'she', a malay girl/lady? .. and that lane she was in , is to move forward one...)

When i saw her like that, i was like "Wtf.. wait awhile will die meh? bastard.. noob" ..and keep cursing the fella non-stop~

At first i took this picture, was because i was playing and cursing, saying something like "I'll take ur car plate number report police see how u die.. hmph ! >3 ".. that's why i got this picture here.. XD was quite lucky though~ if not i cannot show a picture of proof here dy...hahaha~

Then suddenly~ out of nowhere... one police came.. XD

That time i was like "Yes !! DIE U :3", but then see see the police never do anything.. so i started cursing again~
"celaka police tak guna babi.. like that also tak mo tangkap !"..but~ sorry la ya abang polis :P

after that when traffic light turns green~ we cars turn right on that junction lo~ then this police 'chase' the car and asked her to stop.. i was like "WooHooo~ congratulation~ gong hei lei~~" XD (i'm evil huh... Muahaha~ who ask the fella tak mau tunggu mau cepat? lalala~ padan muka~~ ^.^ "

Too bad i tak sempat take the picture of the police asking her to stop..haha~ out of my expectation! XD

Then after that go to class as usual lo~ from 6pm~7pm~ then no more class liao~ but i still have my taekwondo training at 8pm~10pm~ and i was like...alone.. and nobody to teman me.. T.T and then i go walk walk around in campus exploring abit~ XD

then i caught a glimpse of this atmosphere~ and the sky~ seems nice~ so i decided to snap a few pics of it~

Well ~ it may seems normal~ but it really looks nice and caught my heart for me~ ^^ Then i went for training and back home at 10pm ~ Nothing much happened on the way back though... so ~

Till the next update ya~! ^.^

cya and take care~

Mastermind program? Come play ! XD

Fri, 11 Jun 2010 21:18:30 +0100

Recently i had created a win32 console command prompt to play the game mastermind~ Help me try on that program if it can run on your pc or not~ XD The file is attached below ~ xD

There's also a lame and nothing-to-do program which asks stupid questions...do try it out too~ XD

You may download the file in the "Download" tab above~ XD